Wednesday, August 31, 2011

They Come To You In Your Dreams...

There's an African Proverb that states, "Sleep is the Cousin of Death." Now whether that is true or not is debatable, but I've always found that in my dreams life is the most interesting.

I can fly.  I am in most cases happy.  I am a Superhero some evenings or doing amazing things that just don't seem to work while awake.  But more than anything I visit with my family that have passed on and I have to admit that is the most amazing and comforting of all the things that I can do in my dreams.

Last night I was an adult running behind my Grandmother from store to store the way I used to do when I was a kid.  I always give credit to her and my Father for the reason why I walk so fast and have no problem walking.  She used to walk all over West & North Oakland, from shop to shop, funeral to funeral (different story) and my child legs would almost have to run to keep up.  My father was a tall man with long legs so one step for him was almost a complete 3 for me with my youthful legs.  So I'm a fast walker...

Last night I was an adult though, following my beautiful Grandmother from store to store, in between clothes as she picked up this outfit or that outfit.  Some she put up against me to see how it would look, checking out the quality, the cut and stitches used to see if it was something that would fall apart after two washings - or better yet if she could just purchase the fabric and make it herself.

We didn't talk at all, but I followed her around; every now and again she'd turn back to make sure I was behind her and I was.  If I was too far behind she'd give me that stern look that meant if I didn't keep up either a pinch or worse the switch would be a factor when we got home.  Or there would periodically be that look while we waited for a bus that she would lick her finger and then smooth down my eyebrows and give me that Grandmother kiss that would make all in the world great.

Yet last night - I was an adult.  The crappy thing about them coming to you in your dreams at least in my dreams is that I can't speak or at least to her, when my Mother visits we talk all the time.  I don't remember a conversation between me and my Grandmother, just looks of love and the comfort of being in each others presence again.

The alarm lost its mind at 6am on the dot and our time was cut short.  Yet I woke feeling the way I did as a young girl, protected and loved.  Well rested and prepared for whatever today brings.  Yeah, I dig those dreams.

Monday, August 29, 2011

Monday...

At the new gig for a little over a month now. Things are going well. Of course change can be disturbing at times but necessary.

Change is good for me, new experiences, new people, ways of life and ways of thought. Growth.

Sometimes you can get so caught up in the "right now" you lose the ability to just take a step back and view it from all angles, not based on emotion but on fact, truth, reality.

I'm in a good place now... Long time coming, but it feels great.

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Sunday, August 28, 2011

Black Power Mix Tape 1967-1975

Today I attended a showing of snippets of the mentioned up coming film and wanted to share my various feelings on the subject and my over all feeling on Oakland.  I did it in video - broke it up into two parts (still learning) so this is my first go at video blogging (and i'm sensitive about my shit)...

enjoy, comment if you like...


Part Deux...



To read more about the Documentary Black Power Mixtape 1967-1975 please visit Black Power Mixtape 1967-1975

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

New Beginning w/ a New Outlook

A couple of entries ago I mentioned starting a new job, so far everything is going well. More clean up and reorganizing than anything else; but as I do it I keep asking myself why do I continue to work for a paycheck when my heart wants to finally utilize my creativity with history, writing and arts?

So...

I'm going to do what my heart yearns for. My reasons for not doing it a long while ago is because I come from a family of hard workers so the Starving Artist look never appealed to me, but now I'm at a place where I can do both with some organizing and prioritizing. The priority is my heart's desire and finding a way to organize everything else around it.

Yep... FINALLY on the right track.
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Sunday, August 7, 2011

leftovers...

i awoke this morning with
what i gather to be a left over
from a dream of you and me
the funny thing is you have no clue
that you wander freely in my mind
and not only in my dreams

this however was different
for some reason this left over
had me visioning you walking
down the street - the only purpose
was to take in everything your beautiful eyes
could capture

for some reason my soul that wonderful
day
decided it was time i catch up to you
and link my arm with yours
and walk in stride with you
my eyes taking in everything
your beautiful eyes see.

as i type this
this Sunday morning
i wonder if it was even a left over
from a dream at all
maybe it was my soul telling me
to get in stride with you
Ashe...

Greetings Getoflower philosofe!

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